Fear inhibits creativity, especially the fear of being judged. But personal conviction is the great vanquisher of fear. When I feel afraid of potential criticism, or wounded when it comes, I ask myself: Do you really believe in what you said or wrote – in the thing that’s bringing criticism? And if I do believe it, I can withstand anything. Not that criticism doesn’t sting – sometimes I feel punched in the stomach momentarily. But the moment does pass. Susan Cain (as seen on Brene`Brown's blog)This is a quote from Susan Cain, who wrote Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking. Her quote is something I need to remember not only with my creative endeavors, but with my life as well. Also, I took the introvert test and aced it. I think I might need to read the book!
I watched the TED talk she did about her book. Toward the end of her speech she mentioned the concept of the things we carry in our suitcases. She said this to the introverts:
"But introverts, you being you, you probably have the impulse to guard very carefully what's inside your own suitcase. And that's okay. But occasionally, just occasionally, I hope you will open up your suitcases for other people to see, because the world needs you and it needs the things you carry."Lately there have been times when I have wondered to myself, "Why the heck am I writing this blog? What is the purpose behind it all?" As an introvert I am extremely guarded about the contents of my suitcase. Recent experiences in my life have caused and helped me to be more open about what is in my suitcase. I think that is a good thing for me. This blog is another place for me to learn how to share some of the things I carry.
Maybe eventually, with practice, I will get back to being able to share more of the things I carry with people in my face to face life. There are things that have made me more cautious than I need to be in this area, one of them being fear of being judged.
I know that the "message" I have been receiving lately, from several sources is that fear is debilitating and risks are sometimes necessary in life.
It seems I've gotten a little too comfortable being here:
But still, having said that, I feel to compelled to remind everyone (myself mostly) of the storms I have weathered. I'm still not ready to go diving into the deep end. I am only thinking about dipping my pretty pink toes into the shallow section of the creek!