I often feel like I am walking on the edge, not deliberately, but just because that's where I feel like I am. I work actively not to fall off the edge. Sometimes I forget that's where I am and I walk nimbly and safely. But sometimes I am reminded of how close to the edge I am.
And I fear I will lose my balance and slip through the cracks. So far I have kept my balance and mostly avoided this catastrophe. But not without a great deal of help and support.
It occurs to me now that maybe my fear of falling is holding me back.
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Balance: the seventh verb of my 52 Verbs project.)
I'm glad you are avoiding catastrophe. Whatever the reasons - fear of falling, ingrained patterns, rampaging zombies - I hope you are able to achieve the balance and peace you are looking for.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Rach! I am slowly working on it!
DeleteYup, copy and paste that on my blog..... it's about the same.... mostly avoided catastrophe, the problem with that, is you and I both know how much energy and effort it takes to do that. Leaving us feeling drained, frustrated, angry and well... off balance. And today I finally realize that I need a hell of a lot of help and support, a quija board, magic eight ball and a couple of magic wands and a fairy godmother/father... either one.. to help me get myself back together here....
ReplyDeletejust saying'
and I know it's no comfort but just know I'm standing chest deep in the crap with you.
Thanks, Lori. Hope you're doing better....
DeleteIt's never the fall that worries me; it's the landing. Fear can be a healthy thing!
ReplyDeleteSo true!
DeleteMaybe there is something good in the letting go and falling?
ReplyDeleteMight be!
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