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Saturday, November 08, 2014

A Poem (of sorts) and Voices of Friends After a Dark Night

Wide awake at 2:38 a.m. might be one of the scariest, darkest, loneliest experiences in the world. I'm back to sitting up at my laptop, trying to also move around a bit more.Working on making the necessary changes to keep my gut from hurting with the tension of all the adjustments I need to make. Sometimes, doctors don't tell their patients all they need to know, and they are left scrambling to figure things out.

Given Truths

#1: Low moments come.
#2: You're gonna need some help. It's okay to ask.
#3: Sometimes, acknowledging the darkness is enough to send it packing.
#4: If not, find yourself a safe place to scream, whine and b*tch without the need to feel perky. 

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I'm having trouble adjusting to the dietary changes that are necessary after my surgery. It's a matter of seeing what works for my body. It's like walking around with a bit of a tummy ache all the time, because you aren't feeding your tummy what comforts it and helps its little feelings. Food in the South is a source of comfort and love and eating is a way of enjoying life. My tummy is not at all happy, most of the time. I told my family earlier today that it is distraught, and misses its little colon friend. I don't know how to comfort my tummy.

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I should soon know what stage my cancer is in, and will have an idea of what further treatment I will have to endure. I'm told my body will adapt. I even know of some folks whose bodies have adapted. I'll keep you posted. I've been told I'm courageous. My aim here is to be as vulnerable and honest as I can be. I would appreciate your prayers and holding the light for me. Even in the depths of darkness, there is light and love that will carry us through those times.

6 comments:

  1. Your tummy wonders why it can't have what it wants if the colon has a problem.

    All your bits need to get together to work out a new normal.

    In the meantime, I have hold of your hand and your heart.

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  2. I am SO hearing you on the southern food thing. Yep.

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  3. With you in prayer, Annie...

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  4. Yes that is how we eat. I am sorry that your tummy's feelings are hurt. Thank you for being vulnerable for us. We are all right here.

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  5. Holding you in the light my friend.

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  6. Annie, glad to hear from you. Have been thinking of you and praying and will continue to do so.

    All week, I've been up at or anywhere between 1:30 and 4:00 a.m. I think we might be in the same time zone so know that someone else is awake and thinking of you.

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