I've signed up for a writing workshop over at Journaling from the Heart. I'm not sure how much of my writing I'll be sharing here from working through those exercises but I am looking forward to participating. I have long been an introspective person, well aware of my interior state and my interior state is restless at the moment. One of the issues is that I am dissatisfied with my job. Another is that I am thinking about going back to school.
I am a thinker and a ponderer. Lord, have mercy, I am a thinker. My problem is, and always has been, making the transition from thought to action. I am also a dreamer who will take a dream and build it into such a grand and glorious fantasy that it seems impossible to achieve. I know that there is a suitable middle ground for me somewhere between the tentative statement, "I think I'd like to go back to school" and the grand (and foggy) illusion of "I'd like to go back to school and eventually get my Phd in "Something or Other" and then go on to become an expert in my field and maybe write two or three books on the subject. Two issues hold me back from the extreme vision: time and drive. Well, three issues: time, drive and money!-- but somewhere between those two thoughts, there is a realistic plan that will work for me, a fifty-year-old slow bloomer. There are choices. I do know that. I just need to work on fleshing them out.
One of the things I hope to gain from working through the journaling exercises is a clearer picture of what I want/need to do.