This morning I spent some time doing "morning pages" a la Julia Cameron (The Artist's Way). My desk is in front of a window that looks out on my back yard. While I was writing, it began to rain. My intention was to "sit in silence" for about thirty minutes after I finished writing. Since it was raining (and thundering!) and I have a metal patio cover where the rain sounds like music as it falls, I thought I'd go on the patio and sit my thirty minutes out there on my glider.
I don't think this would be considered "official" meditation. I was sitting on my glider and I was gliding slowly. My glider has become a portal to stillness lately. I sit there in the mornings while I wait for the dog to do his business and again in the evening, usually. It is only for a few minutes at a time but it is refreshing.
Here are a few of the thoughts I had to command while I was sitting:
- Wow, that thunder is loud! I bet SpookyRach would be so jealous!
- I need to text my spiritual director and ask her what I'm supposed to be doing while I'm sitting here.
- All those raindrops are like people, all we are is a quick drop in a vast universe.
- I am so going to blog about this.
- Wow, all those drops are like musical notes, I hear the music of life!
- Oh! The breeze makes me think of that Michael Lee poem. There is love touching me in that wind.
- Good grief! Hasn't it been thirty minutes yet?
- I don't care what you say, I am not going to look at the timer. I am GOING TO WAIT till it goes off.
It was nice to still quietly and to hold my thoughts at bay for a little while. I hope I can do it more often.
Anyway, this bird cage, and the bird in it (the bird was part of a wind chime that had broken, I thought I was clever, putting the bird in the cage) was one of the dubious "treasures" we found in the building. It means something emotionally to me, this bird in a cage hanging from my patio.
"Wow." That's what I said when the time finally went off and I could go back to my racing thoughts! And now I'm saying it again, "Wow, two blog posts in one day. I wonder what that means?" Not much, in the grand scheme of things!